Reflecting on 2017......

2017 has been an amazing year. Full of purpose, challenge, growth, and successes. It is so great to reflect on this year realizing that it was a very real possibility I would not be sitting here, sharing this story with you, because I was in the deepest, darkest depression of my life. I was so desperate that I felt like not living anymore was the only escape. 

So to be sitting here, now, typing these words, feels like a miracle. I sat down and read over my journal on January 1, 2017. This is deeply personal, but I want to share a snap shot with you. 

Started this day off with setting direction for the next month. Getting ready to step into my strength...to start fighting for my marriage....Knowing that right now I don't have a plan. I need to get really good at setting a plan, a goal and moving forward with it. 

I read these words, and I am amazed at how this encapsulates exactly what I created in this year. I learned how to set an intention, make a plan, execute the plan, and reach my goals. I did this over and over again, in various areas of my life. 

The Light after the Darkness

But I have to admit, that the darkness did not go away immediately. Actually 5 days into the New Year, I found myself at a retreat with other essential oilers, healers, yoga teachers, powerful woman who are dedicated to changing people's lives holistically and naturally. I was broken and beaten and had planned to hide behind a mask, a facade.  Grateful that this was not what happened. 

Life change starts with admitting you need help. 

That night one of my essential oil friends had a book called Emotions and Essential Oils. She also had an iTOVI scanner  which is a device that uses bio-impedance to send electrical signals to the body and measures the resistance over 236 unique bio-points. It then provides a personalized recommendation of the essential oils your body is needing right then. 

My ITOVI scanner results:

  • Grounding Blend-a mixture of Spruce, Frankincense, Ho Wood, and Blue Tansy

  • Eucalyptus-Oil of Wellness

  • Melissa-Oil of Light

  • Roman Chamomile-Oil of Spiritual Purpose

  • Basil-Oil of renewal

  • Restful Blend- a mixture of Lavender, Cedarwood, Ho Wood, Marjoram, Roman Chamomile, Vetiver, Vanilla Bean, Hawaiian Sandalwood. 

  • Cellular Vitality- a mixture of Clove, Thyme, Wild Orange, Frankincense, Lemongrass, Summer Savory and Niaouli

My friend immediately instructed me to put these oils on, as she read to me from the Emotions and Essential Oil Book. 

Grounding Blend:
The grounding blend teaches perseverance, inner strength,  and grounding. It helps one to realize their true dreams and desires. Helping them to stay focused on the goal until it is achieved. 

Eucalyptus:
The oil of wellness. Helps one to focus on their ability to heal. Helping them to claim wholeness and healing. 

Melissa:
The oil of light is used when one is feeling burdened down by life. Support for those who have lost the will to live and would like to restore the joy of living. 

Roman Chamomile:
The oil of spiritual purpose. This oil supports one in discovering and living their true life purpose. Shedding meaningless activities. 

Basil:
The oil of renewal. Aides one in restoring energy, feeling rejuvenated, finding inner strength. Helping to infuse the tired soul with hope and optimism. 

Restful Blend: 
The oil of tranquility. Helps to bring anxious feelings to a place of calm, tranquility, and peace. Quieting the mind, releasing agitation. 

Cellular Vitality:
The oil of transformation. Aids one in doing the work of releasing all types of negative family patterns and traumas which are recorded in the body. Also aids one in releasing feelings of doubt, despair and burden. 

WOW! When I read back over this list, I am still amazed at how these oils were the perfect combination to help me deal with the feelings, negativity, past traumas that I needed to work through in order to come out of the pit of despair. Now I am not claiming that these essential oils alone,  are what saved me. That would not be true. But they were and continue to be a huge part of my overall wellness plan. 

I am grateful for the friends and long tear-filled conversations that helped me. I am grateful for the psycotherapist that helped me. I am grateful for the anti-depressant that helped me. I am grateful for my yoga practice that helped me. Most of all, I am grateful for the community that supported me through this process with such love and acceptance. 

I could go on, and on, but I want to stop here. I will most likely post again with more reflections. 

How do you like to transition from one year to the next? Do you have any rituals or practices that you like to observe? Do you just treat it like any other day?

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Pili Bailey